Life, Take It On! ;)

Exactly this day, two years ago I have experienced one of the crushing points in life. It was like being handed unexpectedly with an unpacked gift knowing that what's inside is something which you fervently prayed for and just when you are about to open it, it was taken back from you for reasons which you could never understand----it might be it was handed wrongly to you, it wasn't the right gift, or it wasn't yet time to open it. But whatever the reasons were, at that time, I would definitely have refused to acknowledge it.

Hey! Enough with the drama. That was like a looooooong time ago! A lot can happen in two years that had made me realize God's unfathomable plans and wisdom. So after crying my eyes and heart out 'till my face looked like two overfilled packs of eyebags (As painful as it may be, this is not an exaggeration! >cringe<), I forced myself to stomp my feet and go about-----back to the old me  but carrying with me some tidbits of life lessons which would definitely come in handy in the future. *wink* :)

If there are things which I've learned from this day, two years ago, it's that:

• I should always follow my instincts. I may not be able to explain why and it may be unreasonable most of the time. Still, I'll follow it unreasonably then.

• Always be open to life's surprises.

• No matter how you plan your life carefully, God has it already planned for you. Your plan and His plan might not coincide but in the end, God's plans are unquestionably perfect.

• Even though failure is inevitable, you just have to try and see. 

• You cannot escape from the pain of what people might say to ridicule your beliefs and dreams in order to twist your mind to believe theirs. Have an open mind while keeping a steady heart.

• Remember during our younger years when we despised going home? There will come a time when you would yearn to go home above all else in the world and you will welcome its familiar comfort like a balm to a weary spirit. Believe me.

• Unexpected friendship may form during trying moments. This is one of God's way to comfort you.

• Your family and old friends are always there, no matter what.

• Despite the bulging eye bags and the puffy face from too much crying, your mother would always think that you are beautiful.

• A dream that escapes from your grasps should not always be labeled as a "broken dream".

• Healing takes time but with faith and positivism, it will eventually be granted.

And to the person who told me, "Only cowards grab every opportunities that come their way."----THANK YOU. 

I hated you perhaps too much at one point but I've been and am blessed with too much to continue feeling that way. There's only one thing that I wish I could've done, though. If I can go back to the time when you said those words to me, I should have said, "No.Only cowards do not grab every opportunities that come their way for fear of failure." instead of being mum at that time. In addition, it wasn't just an opportunity that I let go, it was my dream. 

But then again, I may have not claimed my dream at that time but God has a way of blessing and surprising you with opportunities that are truly meant to shape you as a person. Plus, trying moments like this would make you do things that you cannot imagine to be capable of----like standing up for myself and for all that I believe in the moment I felt I was emotionally stable and was ready to do so by  going back to this person and telling him with conviction, " I believe Sir, that I don't deserve the words which you pointed at me the other day. I may not have the same beliefs as you have and my life principles and goals are not in line with yours but that doesn't make me less as a person than you are." 

So, way to go Au!  And life, TAKE IT ON! :)